I named it malady in reference to Victorian suicides and .illnessess. That’s because it’s a collection based around my experience with depression. Not to mention, if you know anything about me, you know I’m a little obsessed with the Victorian aesthetic. I remember as a kid, reading a lot about “The Art of Suicide”. That is, the way women were represented as angelic in their suicide, and the way it whitewashes their struggle. Maybe you can tell, but I wanted to represent a more honest look at the suffocation and alienation of depression.
All of these photos backdrops have been shot in water adding a suffocating affect. And by using seven year expired film in a plastic camera, I acheieved an aesthtic that sorounded my model with darkness. None of these are digitally modified, other than to draw out the amazing imperfections of the film. Lots of lines, light patches, flickers of red. In the image above you can see a square where I cut and scanned the image wrong from the developed film – and I freakin’ love it.
It’s a lot different than the last shots I posted here, which were my X-File’s inspired pinhole photographs with my lovely blue haired friend Caitie. I took a chance deciding to shoot film photography at the last moment, but I think it really worked out for the better! Take a look at the whole collection below, and tell me what you think!